Thoughts on Leaving

A big load of burden has finally been lifted off my shoulders. I feel light and almost happy. I say almost because I have yet to see the final outcome. I'm crossing my fingers though that everything would work out fine in the end. Things are starting to make more sense now unlike a couple of days ago where everything was just all fuzzy and blurry. The weather has certainly changed from dreary dark to a sunny one. With the talk I had with my uncle two days ago, the pieces are slowly fitting into the puzzle…bit by bit. I have finally made my decision, which fortunately this time everybody happily accepted. Thank God because I don’t want any more disagreements happening all over again.

I’ve got about three more days before I leave my present work. I have vowed to myself that I am not going to entertain any doubts, questions whatsoever with regards to leaving. I will leave without any regrets. I must say though that it was a good two-month experience. I learned a lot of things, from making a PO down to the simple task of operating an electric typewriter, a Xerox machine even. Also words like “PO”, “PR”, “MIS”, and “OFM” make more sense to me now. I’m not as ignorant anymore. It is also only during these two months that I have actually used the telephone more than I have used it in the past 21 years of my life. (My job requires talking to suppliers.) I’ve also grown accustomed to saying “po” and “opo” that I didn’t even notice that I was saying it outside work already even to people who are the same age as me. I was using it so often that it became automatic. Hehe The work was indeed a very good experience, especially for someone like me whose field or course is so ridiculously far out from what is being asked from the job. It did not work to my disadvantage though because it actually provided a good training ground for me to expand my capabilities and knowledge to a different level. I also got to feel how it is like to be an “engineer”. Haha I wish! Well at least I got to be in the company of real architects and engineers, and learned from them mind you. But more than these, the biggest reward I got was the over-all experience that has helped me grow into a better person. I‘ve emerged stronger and more confident.